Monday, December 14, 2009

Give me an "O"...

So, Thursday I will have an Oophorectomy...yes, I am being spayed. Having my ovaries removed. It will be exactly a year and a day from my breast lumpectomy. Oh, the holidays bring such cheer.
With the recent diagnosis of our BART status - that is: my sister Lori and I tested positive for a genetic rearrangement of the BRACA gene; we are at increased risk for developing ovarian cancer as well as another "attack" of breast cancer. So, we're sending in more troops to take out the enemy. Dr Buten, a snazzy little brilliant surgeon will be doing the honors. He hopes to use a new technique called SIL - single incision laproscopy. One little cut around my navel and they'll pull those suckers out.
I am exhausted and overwhelmed but managed to go to a half a dozen holiday parties this past weekend and will attend another tonight because as of Thursday, I will be flattened.

Merry Christmas..

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Mind the Gap...

Each Holiday season, I tend to enjoy the TV commercials that advertise the Gap. I know, it's trite - but they're usually upbeat with good music and fun dancing, nevermind that the clothes are of no interest to me. This year, there is one in particular that just makes me happy and sad at the same time.

Have you seen this commercial? There is a group of adorable little girls - probably ages 4-7 - they are all dress in whacky bright colors, stripes and patterns, scarves, sweaters and leg warmers. They dance and smile and seem to be genuinely happy with each other. At the end, they sit and form this human caterpillar and all scoot out of the frame...

I want Zelda to be that happy. I want her to dance with glee with her friends. And hold their hands and communicate with them. To acknowledge their existence and relate to their companionship. Right now, she does well at school but still plays by herself. She'll smile and chat but she seems to be alone most of the time. She has to be taught how to play, what friends mean and do and how they relate...

Yesterday, I dressed la petite Z in a flowered skirt, pink tights, striped socks with little ankle boots and a pink and tangerine sweater. She was at least as cute as those girls on TV and I hope just as happy...

Monday, December 7, 2009

the People, the People...

So, for those of you who missed the infamous People magazine article, since the Oprah cover story is now being replaced by Tiger Woods and his scandal: